Today she’s one!

On the 13^th of January 2013 at exactly 11 pm, I was admitted at 40 weeks (EDD 14th January).

Contractions had started at about 2am but it was nothing compared to what was happening from 8pm.

At 8pm I could barely sit!

By 11pm- hello, 4 cm dilated.

So the nurses tells us,

"Okay let’s go to the labour room"

A: “Huh, what?!” 

In my head: “Yo I’m not ready for this”

I’ve been in and out of hospital hundreds of times but always as a doctor, never a patient.

Survived the first few hours without screaming at the husband, until I gave him a lecture about the percentage of oxygen:nitrogen in nitrous oxide (one of my pain relief which didn't do much).

Homie was giving me a hard time about taking too much gas, but hello…my belly was about to explode. So I cut him some slack and asked him to sleep instead.

The next few hours was spent either standing or on the toilet seat.

The worst labour pain were between the hours of 4-5am. The contractions were about 5 minutes apart by then.

The nurses broke my waterbag shortly after I told them,

A: “I can feel something between my legs” (note to self: dude you have a baby in your belly!)

FYI: I’ve never been a fan of O&G. Despite delivering a few babies, the thought of labour (especially your own)…..ouch!

My awesome obstetricians, Dr M walked in at about 5.30am ready to prep.

I had an audience (hello family!) who were all standing behind the curtain. They also told me later that I sounded like a whale (how nice).

Everything happened very fast after they broke my waterbag. Lucky me had to push about 8 times! (Blessed are the mothers who deliver after 2 pushes!)

Our beautiful baby girl, SA was safely delivered at 6.30am on a Monday 14^th January 2013.

And today she's ONE!

Oh, what a year it has been.

I have been blessed with an awesome baby- Alhamdulillah! 

O Allah, blessed us through our children, 

and keep them out of danger, 

and help them to obey You, 

and bless us with their good deeds. 

Amin

Guess who's BACK?

ME! 

Goodbye takingtheyearoff, hello aliaanz.

Goodbye twenties, hello the-big-three-zero (not till October though, but who's counting)

More personal as I make my way through 2014.

This is my year!

More updates soon.

"i'm going to make a change for once in my life"-man in the mirror,michael jackson

i was fortunate to have read this blog post early last year and want to share it with as many people as i can especially my close friends.

be inspired:http://yourjoyologist.com/journal/to-the-point

it inspired me to do the same.

i choose to delete words that i felt were negative.i remember there were 5 but i can only recall 3 now-the mind works wonders :)

the ones i can still remember are:
"stress"-i used to say this all the time.being a highly emotional and at times dramatic person,everything was "stress-ing" me.but not any more :)

"lazy/malas"-i'm a laidback kinda person but sometimes too laidback for my own good!

"boring"-used to be one of my favourite words.i know for a fact my father hates it.

i still have to make a conscious effort sometimes but a majority of the time these words doesn't even pop up in my mind anymore-and i'm much happier!

so here's my tip if you decide to do the same:
-decide on the words you want to "delete"
-make a conscious decision that in whatever circumstances you would choose to replace that word with something more positive
-tell your family and friends about it
-take baby steps if you have too: abbreviate the words like *S for "stress"-eventually you won't even want to use it.

so now i choose to only allow positive words to come out of my mouth-it's totally possible and one day i will achieve it.

change is good :) i support and encourage it.

the choice is yours!

"All I know is that eliminating these words makes me feel freer, more in control, and more honest."-Tricia

happy :)

one of my friends at work said this to me last week,

"why are you so happy and bubbly ALL the time?"

my answer

"why not?"

you control how you feel and so what if i choose to be happy ALL the time.

yes,work/people/situations can be difficult at times but i've decided if you choose to be sad/stressed/angry etc, you achieve nothing! so why not be happy ALL the time.

i deserve it.

and you deserve it too :)

the start of something new :)

note:so i've decided to write in malay and english cause that's the way my brain works so i'm sorry in advance if you can't understand what i write!

mid-march already! ya Allah,kadang-kadang fikir time is moving slowly and then think again actually cepat jugak :)

so here are some of the things i've been cooking since i've been back in melb.i'm making it a habit to cook and eat at home. why would you want to eat out when u can enjoy food in the comforts of your own home and lunch packed from home is always the envy of your colleagues.

kari ikan brahims-cheat recipe cause all u need to add is the fish & bendi but the challenge will be making this from stratch :)

sambal udang with vegetables-nenek taught me how to make the carrot look like that :) she is my awesome cooking teacher.
one day tiba-tiba kempunan nak makan sambal udang :) so this is a cheat version too thanks to brahims.

i love chinese broccoli and oyster sauce-so easy and yummy!

my first meal back in melb.after i took this picture,makan sambil menangis cause i was missing malaysia soooooooooooo much!

another recipe from nenek-makan ni during winter is one of the best things :) u get fish,vegetables and gravy all in one periuk!

lunch box meal :) just leftovers from dinner-this time it's sardine and chinese broccoli.kenyang perut makan ni at work.
dinner

fish curry and vegetables-yummo!!
first time buat sayur like this-cabbage+longbeans+eggs-quite nice actually.

mushroom+cheese omelette-side dish for lunch
food for last sunday's long shift 0800-2200:the most important thing for any long shift is the constant supply of food and in my case healthy food-so lots of fruits,juices x2 and a yogurt for good measure. when u pack your own food to work,u make healthier food choices-so u don't end up eating junk at work :)

woke up one day and tiba-tiba terasa nak makan salmon.spaghetti marina on a bed of salad,salmon on top and steamed veges.puas hati makan.my post run meal :)
weekly lunch with the bro-kari ikan thanks to brahims and eggs-the way he likes it.

my favourite meal of the day is breakfast.on this particular morning we only had very limited supply of food at home cause i didn't do the groceries yet. so kalau perut lapar macam-macamla idea utk makan-simple french toast using wholegrain bread,protein shake and fruits :)

dinner on friday night-post work i stopped by safeway to get groceries-ayam masak madu thanks to brahim :) some chinese broccoli and eggs+mushroom omellete.mata terus tak leh bukak post dinner-syukur alhamdulillah :)
the lastest recipe i'm trying to master.sad to say i've never cooked fried bihun in my life until last week bila tiba-tiba terasa nak makan and so far i've had it 3 times.it's so easy to make and u can make it healthy just by putting more vegetables in.terlalu senang :)

this is just a summary of what i've been up to in the kitchen.i think i'll make a list of the things i want to learn to cook this year but as u can tell a lot of the things i eat are the things yg tiba-tiba terasa nak makan or teringin :) i'm also trying to get back to a healthier lifestyle.

last 5 months of 2010,i ate so much tanpa fikir dua kali.no regrets they say-syukur alhamdulillah.

i've also registered to run two events in the next few months.my running has gone haywire.stamina out the window cause i'm not running as often as i used to.tapi it's okay.i've got a gameplan to get back in shape by september :) all i have to do is follow it!

the first run of 2011 will be on wednesday and it will be an awesome run at docklands.

i cannot wait!

week 3

so it's my 3rd work back at work,adjusting nicely i think.

i miss home A LOT! it's harder when u have so much free time at work,it just means time moves slowly.

i'll have internet at home by tonight (i hope) just in time for the bro,who's arriving soon.

yay a piece of home :)

so with internet this weekend i'll be able to update this blog "properly".

till then have an awesome week!

1st day back

officially back at work!

doing another general year at the old workplace-first day and it's been good.

the year off was awesome.

i got to spend time with my family and friends back home.

i learned how to cook.

i lost and gained weight.

i started running.

i fell in love with my country.

i got to work with my father.

it taught me alot-it's something i highly recommend to people.

after 5 months at home,it was extremely hard for me to leave the comforts of home,family,old friends and the country i now love.

but being back at the hospital today was a great distraction-i realised i missed being a doctor!

i'm keeping this blog going but am turning it into my cooking diary.

i was cooking earlier and thought i'd be cool to document what i cook.

during the year off i had a lot of time to cook for myself.it's something i used to do when i was a student and had my siblings with me.

since i started working,cooking went out the window.

this year that will change!

i'm going to try and cook as much as i can.

i want to add awesome cook to my resume :)

pictures will be uploaded once i get internet at home.

another exciting year coming up!